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Everyone is thinking that I am going down the road whereas I am struggling with my mental health. I was diverted by the bell which was rung because the unit was over . The next unit was Maths and we had a test . I was fully prepared for it . The teacher came and we gave the test . The teacher was sitting in front of us checking the papers and after 30 minutes she started telling us the results. I got 29 out of 30 which were the highest marks . I had no expression as I knew what would happen. In front of students the teacher praised me . And then she called me in the staff room . I quitely went there
In the staff room :
Teacher : Grace , what has happened to your grades , you used to get full marks but now your marks are just going down
Grace : But teacher I got the highest marks in class and also only one mark is deducted
Teacher : No arguments , go to your class and pay attention to your studies
Author Point of view :
Grace quitely went outside holding her tears . She was just mentally tired of doing her best and not having the expected result . It was the last unit so now it was off time . Her van came and she quitely went inside. Throughout the journey she was lost in her thoughts
Grace Point of view :
Soon my home came and I quitely went inside . My mother came and asked me
At home :
Mother : How was your day grace ?
Grace : It was a good day mumma .
Mother : How was your math test ?
Grace : Mumma I got the highest marks in the test (happily)
Mother : How many marks you got ?
Grace : Mumma I got 29 out of 30
Mother : Where that 1 mark went huh ?
Grace : But mumma...
Mother (cuts her) : Not buts and ifs go to your room now and concentrate on your studies .
Author Point of view :
Being sad , Grace went inside her room . She was just angry , angry at herself. Angry on the efforts she did . She was just messed up . That day she didn't eat her lunch nor did she have dinner.
Grace Point of view :
Today again it happened. Mumma wasn't happy with my result. Only one mark got deducted and she shouted at me . When I see other students getting a B on test and their parents cheering them up , it breaks my heart . No one knows or cares what I am going through, everyone just needs a good result . No one cares about how much effort I made. I was crying miserably on my bed and while crying , I don't know when I slept
Next day :
Grace got up due to her alarm and got ready for school . She was looking pale . She didn't even have her breakfast and went to school as her van came .
At school :
Today was a good day . Many teachers were absent so they had free periods . Grace was sitting quitely at her desk . Suddenly a professor came . All students stood up to welcome him
Students : Good Morning Sir
Professor : Good Morning students. So students as you might think who I am . So let me introduce myself. My name is Arnold . And I am a counselor by profession . I visit school and do counseling for students who need it . So I am here to ask you guys the same question: do any of you need counseling or is someone willing to share their problems with me .
Author Point of view :
No student said yes . Grace wanted to raise her hand but she didn't. So after a while the Professor went out . Grace excused herself for the washroom and ran after the professor.
Grace : Sir stop !
The professor looked behind and stopped
Professor : Yes ?
Grace : Sir I wanted to say that I need counseling
Professor : Are you sure ?
Grace : Yes sir
Professor : Okay then tomorrow at 11 0 clock in my office on the second floor at room no.23
Grace : Okay sir . Thank you sir
Professor : You're welcome. By the way tell me your name ?
Grace : Sir my name is Grace
Professor : Okay Grace . Bye see you tomorrow!
Grace : Sure sir
Grace Point of view:
Today I am happy . I don't know it's just I feel like finally I have someone to share my problems with . I am so excited yet so nervous for tomorrow. Also I have an English test tomorrow so I should prepare for it .
Author Point of view :
Whole day Grace prepared for her test . She was doing everything she could just satisfy her teacher and her parents .
Next day :
Grace happily went to school . At 10 am , she gave her English test . Her sir checked the tests and announced the results. As usual Grace got the highest marks yet she got 26 out of 30 . She was shocked and scared that now she will be scolded by her mother and teacher . And the same happened. Her sir called Grace in the staff room and scolded her . Grace was shivering. Yet she controlled herself . She was just waiting for 11 am . Somehow the time passed . Professor Arnold came to Grace's class and called her . With puffy eyes and nose she went with him . They both went to Professor Arnold's office . He made Grace sit . Grace wasn't saying anything just staring at her lap .
Professor : Grace , now tell me everything you have in your mind
Grace : Sir you tell me one thing why am I not appreciated enough for my efforts. Why is it always me who gets scolded even after achieving the highest marks . It's just Why . Why isn't anyone understanding me . Why is no one seeing my efforts . Why am I giving my hundred percent and still not getting enough results . You tell me are 29 and 26 marks out of 30 bad ?
Professor : No not at all
Grace : Why is nobody else seeing this, why no one else is appreciating me ?
Grace started crying miserably. The professor understood that Grace was just being prey of self-consciousness and insecurities .
Professor : Grace , leave everybody else . Concentrate on yourself . Do hard work as much as you can but don't burden yourself. Leave yourself calm for a few days . And then tell me how you feel . Alright ? Do the things you love and get back to me the day after tomorrow.
Grace : Alright Sir !
Author Point of view :
Grace went home . As usual she got scolded from her mother for not studying hard . She went to her room and opened her drawer which she had not opened for months . She took out her acrylic paints and canvases. She set them up on her table and went to get fresh . She took a bath and changed her clothes and then sat down . She opened her paints and started painting. She didn't plan what to paint so she went with the flow . She ended up making a dark midnight view .
Grace Point of view :
I went home and took out my paints . I got fresh and then started painting. I was just painting what was in my head . I was surprised when I drew a dark midnight view . It looked beautiful. I painted some more canvases and then I didn't know when I started smiling and laughing while painting. I felt happy doing that . When I saw the time it was 5 o'clock . It's been 2 hours since I've been painting. I then did my homework and made some notes .
After studying for 3 hours , it was 8 o'clock . I was sleepy so I slept without having my dinner .
Next day :
Grace went to the professor and he asked her to sit down . She was pale as always
Professor : Grace , hey ! Sir down . How were your two days . Did you enjoy them and did what you enjoy ?
Grace : Yes Sir . I did painting. I love to do that but every time I did that my mumma came into the room and just snatched my canvases and locked them in the cupboard. She then handed me my books and told me to study hard .
She started crying
Grace : I..I am just mentally tired of fighting and clearing myself out . No one understands how much I am trying to study . I always top the tests and it..it is just not enough for everyone.
Professor : Okay okay calm down and listen to me . You are doing great . If you are satisfied with your result then it's fine . If you are giving your hundred percent and then your results are not enough then it is their problem not yours . Alright.
Slowly Grace calmed down . The professor told her to stay in his office only . He called Grace's mother and told her about Grace's mental health . She was shocked as she didn't expect Grace to be this depressed at such a young age . She promised the professor to be sweet and calm with Grace from now on . Day passed and Grace went to her home .
At home :
Mother : Grace , how was your day today ? . What did you do today . Okay leave it O have made your favorite lunch , go get fresh and come to eat it
Grace was confused by her mother's sudden sweet . But she ignored it and had her lunch . In the afternoon , Grace's mother came to her room and told her to paint with her . Grace was confused yet happy . They both made many paintings and enjoyed their time . At 5 o clock , Grace started to study and prepare for her test tomorrow. That day she enjoyed her studies . She had her dinner and went to sleep with a smile on her face .
Next day :
Grace was happy in school . Professor Arnold was happy to see her happy . That day Grace got full marks on the test . The teacher praised her and she was mentally released
At home :
Grace went home and showed her test to her mother . Her mother was also happy . She realized that her mental health was affecting her marks . She was now glad that Grace was being happy not by face but by mind also .
At 6 o'clock :
Grace was studying when her mother came into her room .
Mother : Grace can you talk to me for a bit
Grace put the books aside
Grace : Yes mumma say what you wanna say
Mother : Grace , your professor called me
Grace was frozen as she thought now she is dead
Mother : Grace if everything was bothering you , you could tell me or talk to me .
Grace was confused
Mother : What ! Did you think I will scold you , he actually called yesterday.
Grace now understood the behavior of her mother .
Grace : That's why you were so sweet
Mother : Yes my child . But from now on I promise that I will never scold you as and will appreciate you . Do you think , you can forgive your mother ?
Grace : What are you saying mumma . Don't be like this . It is enough for me that you realized your fault . Now please stop being emotional, you will make me cry .
Mother : Thank you my girl . Now you study and I will prepare your favorite dinner .
THE END
Sometimes , our parents and teachers forget and don't see how much effort a student is making for a good result. They just keep scolding them . And now they need to understand that mental health is equally important as physical health and they should pay attention to their children and talk to them like a friend so students can feel comfortable and tell their parents everything about what they feel.
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